I’m a….Writer. Storyteller. Painter. Mental Health & Social Justice Advocate. Finder of beauty in all things



chaotic and broken.

Background info:

I started this blog in November 2010 in an attempt to hold my racing thoughts captive long enough to understand them. In my past lives I’ve been an employee of Sam Goody, Commerce Bank, Target, and the good ‘ol USAF where I was a police officer. (People who know me still can’t believe the government let me carry weapons)

I’m currently wife to a futurist and singularity enthusiast named Bertski, who is a software architect by day and a robotics programmer & mobile developer by night. I’m mama to 2 hilarious boys who are polar opposites but somehow two peas in the same pod: Brennan, my Boy Genius, and Alex the Great, my sensational boy who was identified as being on the Autism spectrum and diagnosed with Sensory Processing Disorder this year. Oh yes…and I’m currently pregnant with our third-another boy 🙂

The journey through motherhood hasn’t been easy. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression since childhood but I missed the memo that having these conditions put me at high risk for developing PPD. My youngest was 10 months old before I found Postpartum Progress, the #PPDChat Army, and a whole new world of support, friends & most of all HELP.  Even with this new world of resources my symptoms continued to worsen, leading to a bus ride to the VA Medical Center in Philly. There I was diagnosed by the intake psych as rapid cycling Bipolar Disorder II, and my life hasn’t been the same since. Living with a chronic illness isn’t easy peasy, but at least it’s manageable and in my darkest moments what keeps me going is the thought that it could be much worse…If I can survive childhood & sexual abuse, and being a single parent, what’s a little BP & sweat-inducing anxiety? 🙂

This blog is a place for me to own my story i.e. lay my humanity bare in the hopes that you’re encouraged to do the same-ya know, like that game you used to play as a kid, “I’ll show you mine if you show me yours.” I believe in the power of things like faith, transparency and vulnerability…my writing is usually flavored with heaping cups of all three, so I understand if you need a chaser to swallow it all in one gulp.

OKAY enough seriousness, let’s get to the important stuff…

Twitter: @addyeB

Paint Shop:


Instagram: addye_b

Welcome to this butterfly’s confessions. I hope you always feel free to share yours.


16 thoughts on “Me

  1. Hi Addy,

    I love your piece “Skin Color, Nappy Hair, & Other Black Girl Hangups”. I would love to have your permission to cross-post on our non-profit site It is an important message that needs to be shared. We would credit you and your site of course. I look forward to hearing from you.


    Pia Guerrero
    Adios Barbie
    Live Fully, Think Freely

    • WHAT?! Are you kidding me?! I’d LOVE to have the chance to be featured on a site such as yours, in fact I’m honored you even read my post and would like to feature it. I love your site and your mission at Adios Barbie. Redefining people’s definitions of and changing their perspectives on “beauty” is something I’m very passionate about and that’s why I love reading your site. I can’t thank you enough, I really appreciate your comment 🙂

  2. I am a Prince fan, too, and I adore PB with bananas & honey, especially on an English muffin or a bagel. Mmmm… Writing has also been a huge part of my life since I was a pre-teen. So, yeah, we have a few things in common. 🙂

  3. How wonderful to hear from you! I just encountered your beautiful and brave blog via Chookooloonks RT. I admire you enormously on many levels: your bravery in calling it all what it is, your bravery and honesty in your writing, your gorgeous photos. I’m in the process of developing a cooking blog after leaving a job that was eating my soul alive every single day. I loved the job (I mean seriously loved), but the facility director created impossible and downright hostile working conditions. I’m in the process of reviving a long-standing goal to start a food blog. Love to you!

    • I’m sorry to hear you had such an awful working experience! I’m glad that you are pursuing your passion though 🙂 I feel honored that you read my posts and enjoy my writing, thank you for your kind words. Love and hugs to you!

  4. This is my new favorite blog. You had me at Butterflies, single parenting, and black girl hangups. Don’t know how you found my blog, but glad you did, so I could find yours.

      • HAHAHAHHAHA I found it from the parenting tag on WordPress, and I’m so glad I did-LOVE your blog! It sounds like we are kindred spirits, my friend 🙂 Thank you for reading and for the kind words 🙂 I’m thrilled we found each other…and I am a HUGE butterfly and Brene Brown fan!

  5. wonderfullllllyyyy expressed … every word u write is touching. I’m glad I stopped by while surfing. Congrats on freshly pressed … cheers.

  6. i read a few of your posts and i don’t know how else to describe it. your persona is fierce! =D you speak boldly and address the elephant in the room, you tell your own story, you tell it because it matters.

    props. =) look forward to reading more of your writing.

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